I think that God knows when you need a small boost to keep your spirits lifted.

I'm still 'operating in a fog' and I'm having a hard time seeing beyond 5 feet ahead of me. A week ago, my neighbor and I went to a Home Depot class on interior painting. The man teaching the class is an art student at the local university. Somehow we connected (somehow "it" just happens when you meet people). We met afterwards and we shared about ourselves. He's my type of person: thought provoking, intelligent, and talented.  I told him about my situation and asked him to do an original painting for me. He agreed and is working on a motivational art piece for my bedroom.  Our interaction is moving beyond client and artist and its exactly what each of us need...motivation. I saw photos of his work and he's EXTREMELY talented and he just needs a little direction on how to market his work. He seems to be "good people." I'm thrilled that we met.

I've also had some old friends really step up and offer their time and energy to help me through this time in my life. Having no solid support system down here (all my family is up North) has been difficult to get through normal day-to-day trials. One friend offered to come by once a week to help me de-stress with his to-die-for back massages. Another stays in contact with me via email and text which helps tremendously.  Sometimes all you need to know is that people care and that you're thought of.  

I realize and admit that I'm depressed and I need to figure out how to break out of it. I've prayed, I've cried, I 've talked to friends...I don't know what else to do. The biopsy is scheduled for Thursday, August 27th.