I'm not sure what exactly happened, but I've undergone a complete 180. It's an overnight change. I was more productive yesterday (Sunday) than I've been in the past 3 weeks combined. The most profound thing that happened is that my eyes have stayed dry over the past 48 hours. I brought work home over the weekend and actually completed it. I worked on my client's project. I worked on my website. I cut my grass. I feel like I can breathe again. I want to get out of bed. I want to move. I want to work. I want to play. I want to live.

I want to live.

I've been eating as well...as many as 2 -3 COMPLETE meals a day.That's a step up from a plate of shrimp fried rice. And the date that has been looming in my mind is not a dreaded day any longer. I'm open to accepting whatever my fate is...not in a negative, pessimistic way. But I realize that after I give my best, after I do my part to stay healthy, I leave the rest to God. Worrying will not make me any healthier. Neither will stressing out all day long. And removing stress is my top priority, so much so that after this ordeal I will maintain a stress-free, healthy-eating lifestyle.

I can only attribute this change in stride to the ongoing prayers of those around me. I can't end this entry without acknowledging and thanking all those who have publically and privately sent their well-wishes, love, and prayers. I recognize that that I have a great circle of people around me who truly care about my well-being. Thank you for the comments, calls, emails, and texts. Your support has meant the world to me.