Fighting the Food Dilemna
This has been a killer week. The first few days of every month are always busy for an accountant and I'm no exception. Getting home late has been the norm this time around and to say the least I'm exhausted. I almost forgot that I had the biopsy a week ago and I should be receiving the results anyday now. I'd be surprised if they called on Friday, so I'm assuming I won't hear anything until sometime Tuesday. Short of a miracle, the results will show something. Remember, my doctor told me that it didn't look "toooo bad." whichever way you want to quantify that is fine with me. What did stick in my mind is that "something" is there. Under the magnifying machine she did see the abnormal cells and its up to the labs to declare how severe the pre-cancerous cells are, or if it has progressed to cancer again.
Either way, the stress of the work week didn't make me feel any better emotionally. I can admit that my spirits are down. I'm still battling the dilemna of what I should eat. I went back to the raw fruits and veggies for a few days and stopped by my FAVORITE fast-food, Chick-Fil-A, on a late night getting home. Part of me feels like I can fight this on my own by eating a ultra-healthy diet, but part of me just isn't that fond of eating grass and tree bark all day. For lunch I went to Fresh Market (an overpriced boutique grocery store) and bought a 1/4 lb. of salmon and a 1.2 lb. of chicken salad. I ate half of the salmon and a few bites of the chicken salad. Tonight is a perfect example. I didn't eat dinner yet. There is chicken and rice in the fridge and a drawer full of romaine lettuce and cabbage. Neither sounds appetizing and on most nights like this I'd opt to not eat at all. Yeah, I know its not healthy. But since I have a 3-day weekend, I'm hoping to come up with a final solution to this eating dilemna of what to eat. At last check I was down to 123lbs (about 10 lbs. from my weight high and norm) and I'm pretty sure I'll be down another .5 - 1 pound when I check in the morning...
I know that I'm sitting here hungry and I'm literally afraid to eat. Chemicals, 'product', hormones, pesticides...are these keeping my body from properly fighting this? I have to find a way to not be paranoid and find peace. My clothes aren't fitting properly anymore and I don't want my caution regarding my health cause other problems. I think I might order some shrimp fried rice.
Either way, the stress of the work week didn't make me feel any better emotionally. I can admit that my spirits are down. I'm still battling the dilemna of what I should eat. I went back to the raw fruits and veggies for a few days and stopped by my FAVORITE fast-food, Chick-Fil-A, on a late night getting home. Part of me feels like I can fight this on my own by eating a ultra-healthy diet, but part of me just isn't that fond of eating grass and tree bark all day. For lunch I went to Fresh Market (an overpriced boutique grocery store) and bought a 1/4 lb. of salmon and a 1.2 lb. of chicken salad. I ate half of the salmon and a few bites of the chicken salad. Tonight is a perfect example. I didn't eat dinner yet. There is chicken and rice in the fridge and a drawer full of romaine lettuce and cabbage. Neither sounds appetizing and on most nights like this I'd opt to not eat at all. Yeah, I know its not healthy. But since I have a 3-day weekend, I'm hoping to come up with a final solution to this eating dilemna of what to eat. At last check I was down to 123lbs (about 10 lbs. from my weight high and norm) and I'm pretty sure I'll be down another .5 - 1 pound when I check in the morning...
I know that I'm sitting here hungry and I'm literally afraid to eat. Chemicals, 'product', hormones, pesticides...are these keeping my body from properly fighting this? I have to find a way to not be paranoid and find peace. My clothes aren't fitting properly anymore and I don't want my caution regarding my health cause other problems. I think I might order some shrimp fried rice.
Well ma'am I for one commend you during this time. As a single mom you go above and beyond the norm- and for that, you are truly an awesome woman. As far as the eating is concerned, you know how I am when it comes to my diet, but not eating,eating irregulary or switching between eating habits frequently can do more damage than good. If you're going to switch diets, do it in a transitional fashion- go from one to the other within a 2 or 3 day period- it gives your body time to adjust. Also, exercise is just as important- eating right is only part of the solution.
Righteous Love,
Rod
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