I sought the Lord last night. I sought Him after writing my previous entry, feeling the full range of inadequacy that I expressed.  I came to Him being honest, expressing the faith, the doubt, the fear, the pain, and the hope that was within me. I spoke to Him as if He were in the room, sitting in the chair across from me. It didn't feel or seem weird in any way.  I didn't feel like I was talking to the air. I humbled myself, recognizing and confessing my sins, acknowledged God as the One True God, and approached Him in the name of His son...my advocate, Jesus Christ.

I believe with everything in me that God heard me. He heard every word I said, every unuttered thought, and I believe He interpreted every moan. God is real. That is one statement that I can attest to. God is real and He sat with me last night.  He showed up in my home, and I asked Him to stay a while. I asked Him to use me like He used David and Daniel in the Bible. I asked Him to fill me so that everything that flows from me is of Him. I want God to seep from my pores, to radiate from within me. I want to be the person that God intended me to be. I want the Lord to be pleased with me. When He thinks of me i want Him to smile.

I sought the Lord last night. And I know that He heard me.