Choking on Chicken
i am officially running on fumes. Early mornings and late nights seem to be my schedule lately. I've wanted to write a blog entry for the past few days and I just needed to stop to do it. I'm putting the finishing touches on the State report for my client...the final step before I can receive my final payment for this project year. I'm about to jump into another month-end and I've been moving non-stop. I realize that what I want right now is some time of solitude. I need to hear my own thoughts and not be enraptured in the lives of those around me. I've been very selective in who I converse with and outright ignoring phone calls at times. I've spent more time seeking God lately than I have all year. I've felt unsettled lately and I think this change in pace will do me some good.
I realize that I need to seclude myself. In the matter of a day I was hurt multiple times by more than one person. I find it funny how you can make a verbal declaration about your life (I WILL BE A VEGETARIAN) and then everyone who hears you tries to shove fried chicken down your throat. As strong of a woman as I'm told that I am, I know that I need to regroup. I literally feel like I've been choking on chicken for the past few months. Constantly verbalizing that you are making a change in your life is hard enough. But when you live in a world of glutens, you're made to be an anorexic alien for wanting something different.
I find myself in a radical time in my life. I know that I want the vegetarian lifestyle and to eat the freshest fruits available. I'm not going to settle for hot cow's meat. I'm not going to settle for it because it's not what I want. Call me conceited or whatever you'd like. But for the first time in my life I'm going to expect the impossible, that the wildest requests could be granted. And if I need to stay to myself in order to not be conformed by the masses, then I will....until I'm strong enough to battle them head on. I will not break down or be made to feel less again because I won't give in to a man's demand for my body.
I realize that I need to seclude myself. In the matter of a day I was hurt multiple times by more than one person. I find it funny how you can make a verbal declaration about your life (I WILL BE A VEGETARIAN) and then everyone who hears you tries to shove fried chicken down your throat. As strong of a woman as I'm told that I am, I know that I need to regroup. I literally feel like I've been choking on chicken for the past few months. Constantly verbalizing that you are making a change in your life is hard enough. But when you live in a world of glutens, you're made to be an anorexic alien for wanting something different.
I find myself in a radical time in my life. I know that I want the vegetarian lifestyle and to eat the freshest fruits available. I'm not going to settle for hot cow's meat. I'm not going to settle for it because it's not what I want. Call me conceited or whatever you'd like. But for the first time in my life I'm going to expect the impossible, that the wildest requests could be granted. And if I need to stay to myself in order to not be conformed by the masses, then I will....until I'm strong enough to battle them head on. I will not break down or be made to feel less again because I won't give in to a man's demand for my body.
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