The Balancing Act
After spending a few days in solitude, I emerged to engage with those around me...only to wish to be back in solitude. I find peace and quiet when I'm left alone with my thoughts. I never stopped to examine just how much drama is enacted around me. There's always a problem and issue and seldom is there a solution or message of hope.I realize that we like to live in mess. We are in many ways like pigs, laying and rolling in our own slop. We go out and buy food and decorations for our own pity party, don't invite anyone to it, but feel the need to tell everyone about it. Then we tend to talk about just how bad someone else's party was....not that we were there (since we weren't invited) but we speculate that it was pretty bad.
Once I removed myself from my normal interactions with those around me, I started to draw a greater value to other things in my life that have gone forsaken. One being my personal relationship with God. Another being directly in-tune with my son. I've been present for everyone else's life but my own. My own house has gone disregarded.
I love my son and want the absolute best for him. I find myself in a position of wanting to provide him with what is perceived as being a better environment (a structured daycare vs. his home-run daycare) but I'm facing the issue of balancing my work life. Logistically, it would find someone willing and available to get my son from daycare on the scheduled (and spontaneous) days that I have to work late. It is one of the balancing acts of a single professional mother. How do you balance providing and nurturing??
My mother taught me a basic lesson tonight. She taught me to stop trying. She told me to let God know what I need and let Him figure it out. Another friend mentioned that when God works things out, situations run smoothly. It is when we try to "fix" our problems that it becomes more of a mess. So I'm trusting God to work this situation out for Ty, where he can get the developmental support he needs and I can fulfill my work obligations and relax from time to time. The mommy juggling act is a hard task to balance.
Once I removed myself from my normal interactions with those around me, I started to draw a greater value to other things in my life that have gone forsaken. One being my personal relationship with God. Another being directly in-tune with my son. I've been present for everyone else's life but my own. My own house has gone disregarded.
I love my son and want the absolute best for him. I find myself in a position of wanting to provide him with what is perceived as being a better environment (a structured daycare vs. his home-run daycare) but I'm facing the issue of balancing my work life. Logistically, it would find someone willing and available to get my son from daycare on the scheduled (and spontaneous) days that I have to work late. It is one of the balancing acts of a single professional mother. How do you balance providing and nurturing??
My mother taught me a basic lesson tonight. She taught me to stop trying. She told me to let God know what I need and let Him figure it out. Another friend mentioned that when God works things out, situations run smoothly. It is when we try to "fix" our problems that it becomes more of a mess. So I'm trusting God to work this situation out for Ty, where he can get the developmental support he needs and I can fulfill my work obligations and relax from time to time. The mommy juggling act is a hard task to balance.
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