I had an interesting conversation with a friend who I've known for nearly 15 years. I explained to him that I've had a rough time recently and needed time to re-group and figure some things out. I've been down a lot with little patience and the mere thought of going to work on Monday brought me to tears. He told him that I felt that I was falling apart and trying to constantly stay focused and organized can get to me. His response, which shocked me, was that he had a hard time believing what he was hearing. It was hard for him to imagine me being so down. He acknowledged that everyone can get down from time to time, but he said that he has always recognized my strength and has always felt that I could do anything.. Then he said, "sometimes I have to remind myself that you're human."  

To say that I was surprised at his comments is an understatement. I do know that the strength that others see is God within me. I recognize at this point in my life that I have no strength of my own. I as a human am very weak and fragile. But something incredible happens to me when I go before the Lord and seek Him and ask for his guidance, wisdom, protection, favor, and love. I speak to God with all sincerity, as if he's sitting in the room. And He responds to me so clearly.I remember the days when I tried to live on my own free will and strength and it is only the grace of God that I am still alive. God is my everything.  My mother has often told me (and it took me a long time to recognize and believe) that the favor of the Lord is upon my life. I can not count the situations that God has brought me through and the blessings He has given me. I have no strength. I only have God....and He is all I need.