Where is the Manual?
This week started another month-end, which translates to late nights. I'm still not over the bug that I caught, though I am feeling much better since the weekend. I feel like my life has been moving like a whirlwind. I'm constantly moving, thinking ahead, preparing. Tonight is a perfect example. I didn't leave work until 7pm. After picking up Ty and getting home, I needed to wash his clothes and get him ready for bed. Daycare fed him dinner (they are the best people....keeping my son so I can work late). He's such a good son. When its time to go to bed, he just climbs in bed, he clasps my hands to remind me to say prayers, we end it with an "Amen," a kiss, and an "I love you". He then tells me "bye."...Priceless...But anyway, I needed to check email for any correspondence from my client and others. I need to plan how I'll get more work done so that I stay on schedule for my client. What are we wearing tomorrow? Ty starts his new daycare on Monday. Did I drop off his shot record and return all the paperwork? I need to start planning my finances for 2010. Open enrollment is starting at my job.
I'm finding that there is a thin line between being the provider and actually leaving time to spend with your child. Most weeknights I'm tired and weekends are for running errands, cooking for the following week, and household chores. I really want to find a happy medium where I can provide well for Ty and me and spend that quality time with him. Part of where all of this is coming from is because I find myself more and more tired. I'm often the "strong woman" who tackles and juggles a number of roles and sometimes you just get tired of fighting, pushing,and you just want to relax. I am mom, employee, consultant, board chair, board member, homeowner. I still have my health to consider, my own needs and well-being also. I will need to go into next year considering my priorities and needs and making some changes. I want to be a humanitarian and philanthropist...two things that are very important to me. I just don't want to bite off more than I can chew. I just got into a local program that gives $250 toward landscaping projects. I want to enclose my backyard so Ty can play. They weren't kidding when they said kids don't come with a manual. One of my co-workers joked and said they accidentally threw it out with the afterbirth. I'm just wondering if I'm doing this right.
I'm finding that there is a thin line between being the provider and actually leaving time to spend with your child. Most weeknights I'm tired and weekends are for running errands, cooking for the following week, and household chores. I really want to find a happy medium where I can provide well for Ty and me and spend that quality time with him. Part of where all of this is coming from is because I find myself more and more tired. I'm often the "strong woman" who tackles and juggles a number of roles and sometimes you just get tired of fighting, pushing,and you just want to relax. I am mom, employee, consultant, board chair, board member, homeowner. I still have my health to consider, my own needs and well-being also. I will need to go into next year considering my priorities and needs and making some changes. I want to be a humanitarian and philanthropist...two things that are very important to me. I just don't want to bite off more than I can chew. I just got into a local program that gives $250 toward landscaping projects. I want to enclose my backyard so Ty can play. They weren't kidding when they said kids don't come with a manual. One of my co-workers joked and said they accidentally threw it out with the afterbirth. I'm just wondering if I'm doing this right.
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